Memories from Insex

I'm publishing again this post sent by toban for christmas last year.
Insex faded (died is not true) just two years ago, and I cannot find any better words than those of toban and Visigoth to explain what was and still is Insex for many old members around the world.


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Re: Insex documentary needs your help
Reply #30 - 12/23/06 at 8:25am

I am highly interested in this project, and am grateful to Zeta and Fatuus for taking the time to make the attempt.

I copied some of the forums at the end, where there were particular threads that seemed very important to keep. I am posting one that I copied below, which many of you may have read, but it was so significant at the time in the fall of 2005 that I kept it.

Visigoth posted this, and it really was revealing to me. It answered some questions for me, and raised others, but it confirmed what a marvelous experience the past few years had been.

I joined Insex in mid 2001. (I went back and checked that out – just to make sure). I had seen some images floating around in the previous 2 years, and thought that they were just too edgy for me, but then I saw Cowgirl’s first shoot with Hogtied, and I read that she had done work with Insex, and so I was compelled to find out more.

It took me a good while to really get into the site. I didn’t watch a live feed until the spring of 2002, when I finally got my Real Player loaded properly so that I could view the feeds as they occurred. However, it was only later that year, and into 2003 that I tried to watch at least part of them as they occurred.

By then I was starting to figure the site out and it had assumed a role in my life that nothing had quite done until that time. I’ve never been a scene player, and likely never would be. Mine is a pretty private kink, and so Insex really opened up a new world for me, where on the forums I realized that there were some highly intelligent people participating. that was reassuring to know.

I can think of a day in November of 2003 on a Sunday afternoon where I’d flown into Pittsburgh and was headed north, and knew that the live feed with Donna, “Flogged”, was going on. I found a hotel a few miles out of town, with high speed internet, and got up into my room and fired up my little notebook to watch the feed until it ended, finally walking over to a steak house for dinner after the feed was concluded. Just though that this was an interesting anecdote.

I too remember that impromptu feed from the farm with Spacegirl, who I always was fascinated by.

All this to say that from reading the many posts from Ghost and others, I wish I had been around much earlier.

I will try to think of more to contribute on this subject, but here is Visigoth’s post from Insex, probably around the end of September 2005. I don’t think that it violates any confidence, and it just riveted me when I read it, and still does tonight as I re-read it to refresh my memory.



I’m feeling a real need to post something.

This site shutting down is going to leave a large hole in many lives. The feeling I felt when I read the board and realized that it was finally really happening was much like being kicked in the stomach. I’m certain that many of you guys feel the same way. The many people who post here have invested a great deal of time and energy in making this site what it is. Many more stay silent and simply come back over and over for the content. One of the key elements that makes this site so much different than most of the others is the fact that so many of the members actually play in real life. Most sites exist to provide an outlet for people who’ve never had the nerve to tie up their wife or lack the capacity to get a significant other of any kind.

I have known this was coming for a long time. PD can be quite paranoid, but that doesn’t in any way mean that he wasn’t right. It is a more than fair assumption that should prosecutions ramp up for edgy sex sites, Insex would be a prime target. While the ultimate constitutionality of this enforced morality will eventually be struck down like it always has in the past, Insex and the people who run it would be ruined by the immensity of the force driven against them by the US government.

I have been a member for a very long time. As long or longer than anyone currently on the site. I was the first member to visit the studio and meet the players. PD is of course the only one remaining from that crew. In fact, the studio was brand new at the time and remarkably empty compared to what it has become. Ghost and a few others who go back that far will remember what it was like.

I remember live feeds starting at 2 and 3 am instead of the middle of the afternoon.
I remember long discussions in the chat with people long gone and some still around.
I remember suggesting during an early feed that PD “feed her a taco” and everyone on camera stopped dead and stared at the camera.
I remember leaving the chat logged in at work all day and sneaking comments in whenever I could.
I remember a chat during a feed where certain people went ballistic because a model admitted that she was doing it for the money.
I remember when those same people left to start their own “Real” site.
I remember when those same people started producing pure glamour bondage and dropped any pretense.
I remember watching 2 top models argue about who got to do a custom bondage scene involving being bound with barbed wire.
I remember many weeks when I came to New York and slept in a hammock between the pillars in the studio.
I remember many nights trying to sleep in that hammock with a bound girl writhing within a few feet of me, one time, directly below me.
I remember forsaking sleep many of those nights to build some god forsaken contraption to be used the next day during a live feed.
I remember PD pacing furiously in the days leading up to a live feed only to crash and take a nap in the few hours before, creating a certain ‘calm before the storm’.
I remember amazing girls willing to try anything.
I remember 35 year old 180 pound girls claiming to be 24 and 108 lbs who were too scared to be closed, not locked, but closed in a trunk for a shoot.
I remember waking up to gorgeous girls being interviewed only to have them in full bondage a few hours later.
I remember watching many girls walk into the studio for the first time with eyes like diner plates and mouths like black holes sucking the air out of the room.
I remember the incredulous looks SirC would give PD as she cleaned a bowl of dildos or expertly stored rope.
I remember PD retying a girls wrists I had tied because it wasn’t up to his standards.
I remember PD calling one of my contraptions ‘Entirely too Rube Goldberg’ and making me un-tape the poor girl from it moments before a live feed.
I remember going to the store across the street and watching the cashier not even blink at the very visible chastity belt on the model I was with.
I remember the look on a models face when she had been chained to a rack for an hour being stimulated by nothing but stim.
I remember the music software demo timing out during the Electric Love feed and having to fly by the seat of my pants until I could get her to cum without anyone notice.
I remember looking down at the stim unit after she did come and being amazed that it was ALL THE WAY UP.
I remember convincing PD to buy that chastity belt, and being horrified at his choice of the least stable girl I ever encountered there, as the subject to wear it.
I remember an experiment with documenting a multi-day 24/7 arrangement only to have Zeta repeatedly call us callous and cruel, probably quite accurately.
I remember that experiment lasting 28 hours which was 1 hour longer than the 7 day chastity belt experiment lasted.
I remember shooting video and stills for many shoots.
I remember participating in numerous live feeds where the focus and intensity is really beyond anything I’ve experienced.
I remember doing my own live feed with 2 of the best models to ever grace the studio.

I remember so many things from my time there and my time on the site. I have been blessed with the opportunity to meet so many of these fine people. I have also had the opportunity to speak to so many during late night phone calls to Pd including most of the best models. Imagine talking to PD with 912 gurgling in the background!

Imagine if all those people stealing content on the black boards where “Spider Videos” are the crème de la crème of content had actually joined the site.

It’s truly the most amazing site out there. That’s not to say there aren’t some good ones. Matt and Donna got some decent chops under PD and produce reasonable content. I’ll even call some of it inspired. PainToy, Hellselevator, TortureGalaxy, Painmaiden, KnotNice and several others come to mind. Even Bondagecafe, TiedGirls and when it was around, Shortfuse do some nice work. But all of them are far more specialized and focus on 1 or 2 kinks. No one presents the level of production and obsession with quality that Insex does. More importantly, no one engages in the exploration that has put Insex so far ahead of anyone else.

Sadly, I haven’t been there in a long time. I haven’t actually seen PD in a couple of years. Zeta even longer. I met Cyd once but sadly I was so preoccupied with setting up the Electric Love sequence with Spacegirl that I didn’t remember it. I’ve never met the stalwart ScotT. I’ve never met 912 either, but I’ve have several opportunities to talk to her on the phone.

I rarely participate in the forums these days for several reasons. One is that to provide relevant discussion on an ongoing basis becomes rather consuming for me. I have a demanding job and a very robust family which draws my attention away. Another is that a lot of the discussion becomes circular for me after while. I’ve found myself typing the same entries over and over again when the same discussions come up. There are some very efficient archivists on the site who will gladly point a newer member to the portion of the board where the discussion was fully fleshed out. The biggest reason is that my personal investment with the site goes far beyond that of a regular member and I feel conflicted engaging in discussion knowing more about what is going on than a regular member would. I am not a staff member, and never have been, so I cannot speak for the site, but I do have insight which makes walking the line difficult.

It’s been a pleasure, an honor, and an obsession to be here for so long. Whatever the new site brings, and I really don’t know that much about it, it will not be Insex. It is not porn, it is art, it is life, and it is real.

It will be missed.



Not much to say after that!

Merry Christmas to all of you!

'Toban